me. myself. clement.

in the end, it was really just me and my trademark impatience again. that the fact that the plans laid down for me from God is more than just a to-do list of things that needs to be done in the most efficient manner and as quickly as possible.

there are so many things that God has laid down. but it just slipped my mind that things can only happen in God's good timing. and that my source of frustration is really just me expecting everything to be like implemented overnight.

as i was talking to ailing after helping rachel with her work monday night, i realised what an idiot i was seriously. making myself so miserable over nothing. i badly needed time alone, so i went to KAP and sat down and started articulating my thoughts on paper. so i can do some thinking about my year.

i needed to be realistic about what i can do. and what i cannot do. that while there are a lot of things that needs to be done. that i am only human being. and can only do so much. because there is also the small matter of me not burning out. and the small matter of still making time to commune with God on a daily basis. that everything else, be it mentoring, cell leading, doing worship really is secondary. my relationship with God is paramount. first and foremost.

another clement-esque moment of divine enlightenment.