nightmare i can do without

already plagued
by incongrous pain,
i can't sleep
i woke up in utter pain.

twas' a dream
a nightmare i can do without.
of me sending someone home again.
but it would end up so different.
so tragic.
but so what i want things to be.

but i know i cannot.
i simply can't be there.
there on the sensuous dark side.