taut tuesday tea

tuesday night was busy. went to church after work for prayer meet. then went to temasek hall in NUS to meet my upperstudy to hand him something and talk a bit about work matters. then i zoomed to shawn's place to say goodbye. because i can't be at the airport wednesday morning.

ok. so the goodbye hug didn't go too well. we both couldn't decide which direction to go. normally people would just go to your left. but i went to my left and shawn went to his right. and when i tried to correct it. he tried to correct it too. pris was laughing her heads off. ah well. this is not the first time this has happened. just that the first time round...uh oh...urm, pretend you never read this. tsk tsk.

anyway, worship at prayer meeting was really good. i didn't really plan for it coz of my migraine. God just meant to tell me the reality of the one-line he planted in me -- doing my best is not trying to be perfect. it was only three songs. i didn't exactly know why he impressed upon me the word 'bow', but as we sang i gradually found out why. it is really how amazing God works.

in other news just as calvin college mailed its prospectus to me, i read on winston's blog in his article to the J2's studying like crazy now, a line -- "why worry about which university you are going to?" that pierced through my very being. although i know God wants me to stay in NUS. i still harboured hopes of going to the states. u penn, northwestern and now calvin college have all sent me their applications. so now it's God's way of telling me to just quit it. still find it quite hard to put those brochures down. damn.

thought of the day are all mothers like this? whenever i fall sick, i do not expect to be cajoled by my mom. instead she will up the ante and scold me for not taking care of myself properly. her usual routine would include repeatedly yelling at me using the line 'see lah. i told you so right?' i think she misses the whole damn point -- that i am sick and so what if you're right. it still does not remove the fact that i'm sick and need some solace, peace and comfort. and if you are not going to help me feel better. then at least keep quiet?

wassup on wednesday? an appointment with my kerala-born neurologist at NUH. please keep me in prayer. should not be a brain tumour. but you never know. tsk tsk.