selfish

my gaze catches the gushing rain water
that forces its way towards the sungei
the breath of fresh air
that a downpour brings forth.
so startling. so refreshing.
very invigorating.

so unlike the possessive me.
like the wolf in sheep's clothings.
the dark side.
that selfish streak
manifests in my consciousness
as selflessness personified.
envy. jealousy.
spreds like fire within me.
hoarding everything in my path.
just can't bring myself
to share. to let go.
I am bloody hell selfish.

My brain explodes.
i thought myself selfless
it cannot be. those efforts.
that loyalty.
but alas.
i forget. they don't belong to me
cease to care.
not eye to eye.
but side by side.
goodbye.