c-lamentations

i opened my mouth to check on my tonsils sunday morning and those white lumps on my tonsils were there. i was free of those white spots for a while now, and i feared the worse when my right tonsils began hurting after worship during vcf care group meeting just now.

and i feel a tad feverish right now. i hope it's just the fatigue and nothing more. i just recovered from the remnant cough from my post-vcf camp flu bug, i can't afford to get sick now. especially since the tempo is going to pick up. my magazine. church. and yes -- school. i got a paper due next week and a presentation. tutorials start next week.

maybe it's just because my lifestyle has been unusually sedentry the last few months. i used to do quite a bit of soccer, track and swimming every other week. but no, the people i know aren't sports people. plus my schedule. and my default sloth. and it all adds up.

but my immune system is failing me time and time again. could be spiritual reasons too. but attributing all my ill health merely to jsut that reeks of sheer fatalism and is way too functionalistic.

and i feel so lethargic. still in the holiday mood. going to school -- rushing to class, queuing to print notes at the print centre and fighting for seats in a lunch time arts canteen -- all feels so surreal. like i am walking in a dream.

i need to get into the groove soon. and stop sleeping in so late every other day. and start spending time with God every morning.

let the new busy season begin.