what is wrong with me?

i don't really understand why i am feeling the way i am feeling right now. the sense of acute sian-ness and restlessness all combined. i don't even know how to describe my state of mind right now. it's like being caught in a state of limbo, not knowing where i am headed next or what i am going to be doing.

it could be because of the nagging thought of not having enough to pay through university. it could be whether i continue in the areas i am serving in right now. it could be the state of my walk with God. it could be a reaction to how i perceive how indifferent people are towards me. i really don't know.

or it could all just be a bout of male transitionary pms. whatever.