dancing the emptiness away

it finally dawned upon me the reason why i feel so good dancing to the pounding beats of zouk. it was like attaining divine understanding all of a sudden.

during the course of this week, God initiated a quick revisit to my issue of coping with clubbing. and as he was dealing with my preoccupation with something else, he also spoke to me about why i seemed to be enjoying dancing so much.

i realised that it was emptiness i was trying to dance away. that each time, the restlessness i expand on the dance floor was simply my method of escaping from the pain of it all. that deep down inside i am empty. that despite all that i do, and all that i say, i am in essence an empty being. the restlessness that resulted was quite simply a result of my reaction against this emptiness.

twas' just a physical method of dealing with it.