sometimes

sometimes when resolve
just seems so far away.
so difficult.
sometimes when people
just do not care.
do not care.

i drive myself crazy.
dwelling on the what-might-have-been's.
it's just so infuriating
that things just don't go the way you want it.
why people just don't understand.
why such things bother me.

sometimes. all the time.
what have i done?
they don't care. then they start.
and it piss me off.
their fake concern.
and mockery.
it kills me.

sometimes when
peps don't appreciate
what you do for them.
sometimes when
i'm taken for granted.
never thanked again.

then it'd hit me
that as long as i work with peps
they'll hurt me.
that i'll feel pain.
that self-doubt would plague me dead.
that i would have to change the way.