project neutral ground

maybe i should just shut up for life. i just shoot my mouth off. and the whole conversation goes silent. i just have this knack of ending conversations. maybe i just try too hard to be conversational. maybe i should just be always serious, rather pseudo-seriousness. coz that's what i am most comfortable with.

saturday. attended university cell for the first time. went into it in a flustered state coz i overslept. then i could not connect with what was being taught. it's not the leader's fault. it's just me. then the evening service. was a total wash-out. my physical being was there, but my mind and soul were just elsewhere. i totally didn't belong. maybe it's too early to judge. but i guess i should bid my time. no rush. no rush at all.

then after that. rushed down to youth park to catch my dark star's maiden gig. i totally liked their sound. i mean for a music illiterate like me. that is a great deal. i could identify their dominant sound. and it was way smashin'. now when's your album coming up?

then it was to dinner and then to embargo to chill. had the urge to dance. it din help the music being spinned at embargo was so damn good last nite. struggling with that urge to groove was terrible. i fet so restless and had some chest pains. believe it or not.

this morning. came at the same time as vincent. came just before sermon started. again. in a total state of blur-ness. coz the sermon on the Holy Spirit. informative. way crucial. required us to flip from verse to verse. and there were like 15 of them. i lost interest. just too restless.

then cell. everyone in my cell except for pris, jen and the returning shu ying went AWOL. it just felt so familiar. remember the days of my virtual cell. *sigh* dropped by brian's cell before dan lin and vincent came along to pick me up to go to the beach. fun fun fun. captain's ball. more like captain's brawl on the beach. wei chin was in his element. blocking shots after shots. unlike joseph who buried his feet in the sand and simply refused to play the game. he basically just stood there the whole time everyone else was running about. blah.

then after the beach. it was off to home to dump my gear. had a quick bite. before hitting eveline's 21st b-day party. and then it was to ailing's granny wake. i know this just sounds so wrong. but i had a smashing time there talking kok. haha.

my weekend for you.