the importance of preparation

led cell for the bb boys just now. didn't exactly know what i wanted to do except that i wanted to touch on the topic of self-image. basically basing it on pastor dan's sermon 2 sundays ago. but when i was talking about it. i basically did not meet the guys at their spiritual level.

maybe it's not right to be so hard on myself. but this is a clear example of what not to do for cell. i need to pray more when it comes to materials. going book by book, verse by verse for a bunch of relatively new christians won't work. i need to make it relevant so that they would want to come and be excited by the Word. for all the teaching ability i have in the classroom, i can't teach the Word for nuts. coz maybe i am not grounded enough. maybe it's just my lack of focus as a result of my lack of direction and prep.

or maybe i should just quit being so introspective and let God do his magic. coz i am really only an agent for Him to do his work.

the answer i know lies in the middle. i will only know exactly how through experience.