deep impact

i seem to do doing
all things wrong lately
one mistake
seem to snow ball
right to the next.

u expect some
to understand.
instead they don't
and say i whine.
i guess i do
but i am trying
to talk to people
i thought i trusted
and who trusted me.
every time this happens
it's like a tide slap across my face.
humiliated.

it's my comfort zone.
of quality many have cautioned me about.
i choose to stay.
coz to change requires effort.
maybe now He would take things
into His bare hands.
looks like an enforced change
is in view.

why do i make such mistakes?
why? do i think as such?
are things really as they are?
me always screwed up?
they always perfect, normal?

guess i thought wrong.
guess it is me being insensitive
guess it's all my fault again.
guess it's just the fall out
from the ultimate
deep impact.