holiness. unity. missions

the nights of first three days of this week have been spent at the singapore poly convention centre at a church event. it is a call for the church community to respond to a call to holiness, unity and missions collectively.

it was a platform for me to correct my perspective. i felt so guilty for falling short yet again, and it almost prevented me from going forward to make a stand once again.

i needed to yield control from myself to God. i was trying way too hard. and that was my problem. i needed to just commit everything to God once again -- the 3 papers due monday, friday, saturday next week; the never ending amout of readings, chronic fatigue at the end of each day...everything.

i never found it so hard to let go. but i am going to try. i know God is waiting. and no matter what i think, i know He is crazily in love with me. i am here only by His grace. it's high time this gets filtered into my system and my being again.