fighting against yourself

the Lord is my sheperd i shall not be in want.
with God all things are possible.

watched spiderman 2 yesterday with rashid at lido. was a guy's night out. spent hours catching up with him and then he came over to stay the night and we talked some more. then we remembered that there was no soccer yesterday. damn.

the show was awesome, but something spiderman said about "sometimes we got to give up what we desire most to achieve what is good" hit a raw nerve in me. and did i tell you how kirsten dunst look like gwenette paltrow-martin in the show? gosh. and kirsten shares the exact birthdate with me. same year some more. eh.

i felt better after the show. it has been only 3 days since i started work. and i am dead tired every day. but i am strangely happy. it's so different from during my army days of so not long ago.