melancholic madness

so kelvin's back in brisbane. so the super long weekend has come to an abrupt stop. finally done with my SAT 1 on saturday. sorted things out with andrew. found my notebook i lost.

so many things to get me going. so many things to be glad about.

but i am just so tired. so tired of it all. i am just so sad. don't know why the utter gloom. the sheer melancholia. i used to revel in it. the self pity and all. but now it is pissing me off.

i just cried myself to sleep last night to corrinne may's fly away. i knew it was something more than that was making me so sad. that i felt so empty. i knew this emptiness is something that has to be filled by Him. but nothing seems to be making this go away.