down and out

joy. i have nearly forgotten how it feels and tastes like. i really do not know what's up with me nowadays. i just seem to move from one rut to another. he said repentence brings pain. maybe that's why. normally what pple normally say is 'one of clement's mood swings' lasts for a week maximum, but this time, it's been around for more than a month.

even when i smile or i laugh now, it's only for a split moment. i would normally be the one to be chattering but now while travelling i would sit there and stare out of the window. so many times i wanted to open my mouth, i find myself stopping myself on most occassions.

i think i am getting tired of life as i know it. i just asked God what He thought of me, He's shaking every foundation i have built my life on -- from my friends i keep to what i whine about. moving on. that's the most difficult.

ok. this is a whiny entry again. sorry to put you through this. suggest you lay off my blog if you find it irritating.