just when i thought everything was coming to a close

hello folks. i have blundered. mistook some progress in my spiritual growth as an end in itself. i thought i had some issues sorted out already. but over the past few days the truth showed up -- and it just went to show how things have not changed. and that people were basically doing one thing and saying another.

people live by different definitions of the same thing. that's one thing i think i have to deal with it with some form of resolute-ness now. God is making himself heard now. all the more coz i have been brushing that aside. this is, just one of the million and one things He is stirring in me now. i can't exactly say i like this coz it upsets the status quo in my life. but really God knows best. so i must and will trust.

so guys. if u are reading this. get ready to ride with me. and no. it does not mean i will whine again. coz that's exactly another thing God wants me to correct. to not talk about some issues or what is known as complaining to most, to the most people i am complaining to now. or even to quit this nasty habit altogether -- since i dunno when to stop. i will just choose what i say from now. even more carefully than ever. does it mean i be more guarded and aloof? and not care about what i really care about now? maybe? but that's not the point is it? coz that would mean swinging from one extreme to another.