they just got to end

u know. i am just reading the book i kissed dating goodbye and the book contained a lot of truths a lot about relationships. even with people of the same sex. just plain old truths about relationships. some people may find the book life-changing. to me, it's more of an exertion of what i already know to be true. except that recently i have been experimenting and trying things i have always been against. it's a reminder to come back. and reconcile what i have learnt. i seriously feel as though i am straying. but it's controlled straying. gee. oxymoronic? maybe.

friends. i have discovered that friendship must end some day. it's what people call natural death i guess for a person who take friends too seriously. it just dawned upon me that friendships end coz it takes two to clap and when people don't care things dun happen. my brand of friendship is total when i decide to be whole hearted. but people are brought up differently. in different cultures. different background. they do not comprehend where i am coming from. and so i decide that this being the case. i should not pursue and not be so anal abt things. that's when things die down and i dun care anymore. it feels good not to care. coz care equals love and love equals time and effort. i am so tired. it sucks always giving and never being able to receive on your own terms. it must feel different to not respond for a change. but people dun care that u dun care. maybe that's why as people grow older their social circles shrink. coz they get attached and their whole world revolves around themselves. maybe they are just too tired fighting to be good friends.